I'M SO FUCKING HAPPY.

i've been fasting since monday (with only a fewww slip ups) and i am now the proud owner of a body that weighs 106lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i weighed 113 monday morning!
i'm actually so proud.
BMI= 16.6

(is that good? idk.)

I DONT CARE!!!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhh my fasting never works, i always end up messing it up.
in retrospect i know i could've lost more weight than this if i didn't have that half-bagel on wednesday or that bowl of special K last night, but GOD it feels good to have accomplished something.
i was plateauing at 113 for months&months.

now i just have to keep this up, huh.
eeeehhh, i can do it!
(too bad this high won't last all day. heh)

Wow, i actually made it to day 4 of this fast! I haven't made it this far in soooooo long. (I did have a 15cal strawberry ice-pop thing, but i'll just pretend that never happened.)

I don't have a scale anymore, so i've taken to measuring my waist, hips, etc. 25 inch waist, is that small? i actually have no concept of size anymore. haha (I just want my freakin' scale back!!!)

I dunno if this happens to any of you, but i find while fasting, certain muscles seem to tense up. like in the shower this morning, my calf muscles were tensing, kind-of like i was about to get a charliehorse or something. it was weird. i dunno, maybe that's just me.

and, haha, i can't stop sighinggggggg. i take really deep breaths all the time. My dad thinks im being dramatic. :P

anyway, i'm off to read julieus caesar for my english final tomorrow.
wish me luck, it's gonna be a bitch on an empty stomach!! D:

AHH! day 3 of my justwater fast and i'm not hungry anymore! I just lovelove when I pass the 'hunger' period of fasting, because then I can completely forget about food alltogether.

Yesterday was bad, though. I couldn't get out of bed. I drank 2 glasses of water w/ lime, and threw-up everywhere. I was sooo sick. I read somewhere that a few no-salt soda crackers would help nausea while fasting, so I ate 2 and it TOTALLY WORKED. (I feel like I broke fast by doing that though, it feels like shit.)

I suppose it was only 2 crackers. That's hardly significant. Right?

Oh well, i won't have to worry about the nausea anymore, since that only happens around day 2 for me. PLEASE wish me luck in making it to sunday with this!! If I do, i'll be so proud of myself, I haven't been able to make it that long in a fast in a veryyyy long time.

GAHH I wish my gaddamn parents hadn't thrown out my scale.
I loved keeping track of my weight.
Now the only time I get weighed is at my bi-weekly clinic appointment. That's sort of scary because if i loose too much weight between appointments I'm at risk of getting admitted for a couple months. YAH THAT'S JUST WHAT I NEED!!!
how am i supposed to avoid that if i don't have a scale?!?!?

oh well. relax, jill. 60 hours down, 108 hours to go.

!!!
i can do it i can do it i can do ittttttttt

This is so awesome! Hour 36 of an all-water fast is probably the farthest i've gotten in a fast since i met my boyfriend. ha ha. 5 months ago. sad but true.

I stayed home from school today because, hell, i just didn't want to go. I'm glad my dad is such a pushover.

gahhh, okay i think i'm gonna go watch some movies or something, i'm feelin' kindof light headed. IT'S SO WORTH IT!!!!!!!!!

105 105 105 105 105 pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
just 5 lbs to drop, ahh i hope i can do it!!
(gotta remember, bikini season is soon!!! hehehehe)